I want and I need it, i’m tryna pick it out
But I can’t figure out what it is I’m looking for
It can put me back on track, but tell me what the hell is that
Harder to describe than a crazy metaphor
It could be better for, or worst, that’s just how it go
But till that day it winds up in my lap I will never know
This is how the game’s played, I took the give and go
And tried to run wit it but I couldn’t handle it no more
Every second every hour I be moving faster
And i would praise it till it crossed me like a pastor
Everyone thinks they have complete control that they can master
Till the rain falls down and it couldnt get damper
Am I doing to much or not enough?
Is the rest of my life smooth sailing or getting rough
Even harder from the outside looking in
The pot i used to piss in now i’m cookin in, what is goin on

I gotta take a step back, get on track, bring it back, cuz I needa slow down
I gotta get the fuck up, fore I fuck up, before I take another go round
I gotta take a step back, get on track, bring it back, cuz I needa slow down
Let me take it all in, and try it all again cuz what goes around comes back around

When I lost my cousin I couldnt tell you where my mind was
Millions of thought processed thats what a mind does
couldnt connect what it was saying like my mind bugged
Life hit me like a meteor now my mind fucked
While I was setting up my shots like a bar back
I was givin yall my secrets like a car fax
But i had to hang it all up nigga wall tacks
This shit is getting rough, needa fall back’
But how can I fall back so much shit to finish here
My mother relapsed again this year
My father having surgery and gonna lose his leg I fear
Send me a sign or let me get the fuck outta here
Its time to make a change before I come deranged,
Cuz insanity is wanting change but it stay the same
Cheers to those who made a road for theirself
Cuz lord knows I can’t control myself