Diagnosis

Sup doc, I need a diagnosis
Please tell me what’s ya prognosis
I’m 24 and some change showing signs that’s consistent
With paranoid thoughts and a fear of commitment
The world is court and everybody is a witness
Everybody judging at the end of every sentence
It makes me wonder if they want me in the past tense
A never was, never had, oh you goin? now I’m glad
But hold on isn’t it normal to be thinking this way?
Aint it wrong for me to think The world is all play
Ain’t that the reason why meditate and pray
Yall never let me think for myself but this what i’d say

There ain’t nothing wrong with me (x2)
I’m Convinced that
You just tryna find the wrong in me (x2)
And try to fix that

So much shit in my head every single time I wakeup
Life shakeups, a not so major breakup with no maeup
I’m not scared of change but the changes themselves
And everyone else aint got like I do, the hell?
Every friend every lover everybody I know
So happy when they gotta let me go, but I never let them go
I thought the point was to never let them go, but when I let’em know
They hate that I let it show, and then they fucking go
I know I wear my heart on my sleeve
I’m just showing it to somebody hoping that they never leave
Kinda hard to believe that everything I work for in life is just a reason for me to grieve, but then I say

There ain’t nothing wrong with me (x2)
I’m Convinced that
You just tryna find the wrong in me (x2)
And try to fix that

If it aint one thing its another, why I even bother
Its obvious whatever I say don’t mean shit
All your testing you do just make me smother
News flash, the grass ain’t always green bitch
Makes me wanna pack up all my shit and go take a mean trip
Smoke some green and find my way in Greenwich
That’s Connecticut btw, who knows I might will stay
But it aint running away its just making a stand
Sometimes a change of location wins the war in the end
So you can stop the pretend, I know you don’t care
Let me get the fuck up outta here, take it one step at a time
Get back on my grind and and in due time I’ll say